A poem for you, mom

The other day I was flipping through stuff and found a journal that belonged to you, mom. There were very few poems, and some cute doodles of trees, houses, and clothes.

They were beautiful poems

 My mom always had a way with words, but me not so much. Poems are hard for me. I remember not being able to write them in forth grade; it was quite distressing to me. But, my mother would sit at the table and marvelous words would flow out of her... it was beautiful.




So, I've decided to write a poem for you.

 

If Heaven had a Window

By Jessica Tolasky 12-27-14

If heaven had a window, and you granted me a view

I wouldn't waste time searching

I'd only look for you

I'd listen for your laughter

And wait to see your smile

All because I miss

the scent of your shampoo

If Heaven had a window and you granted me a view 

I'd treasure that sweet moment and only be near you 

Here on earth I pray to God to show me signs of you
and every day that passes you're with me in my mind

I wonder if you're happy 

And waiting there for me

I love you and I miss you 

More than words could say 

I hope that you can hear me 

and listen to my thoughts,
and where ever this life takes me you know I've not forgot.
That once upon a time I was blessed and loved its true,
and if heaven had a window 

 I'd only look for you.

Night will come

When I was little (well 5th grade), we had to learn a lullaby from another culture. Now, I forget what culture I chose, but it was a song I learned in chorus, so I used that one.

You loved it! And sometimes when I couldn't fall asleep, or I had a bad dream, we would sing it. 

You used to leave messages on the house phone for me with it. When I went away to camp for the first time, you told me to, " look up at the moon and say I love you, mom" and at that exact time, she would do the same, and since we were looking at the same moon, she would feel my love and I would feel hers. 

That camping trip, I used the voice recorder you bought me for my history project and sang the lullabye to you. I think you appreciated that...

So, today, this is for you, mom!!!!!

Soon night will come 

Following the sun 

Sounds of the night growing near

Here the winds whispering 

Whispering to you

Sleep sleep sleep 

Goodnight my sweet one 

Goodnight my dear one 

Good night my sweet one

To you, good night! 

Mommy & Jessie First Photo